I survived. I am just a week away from ending my junior year. I am looking forward to my much-needed six weeks winter break. There has not been in a day in the past three months when I did not want to quit.
The stress was from having difficulty balancing school and family life and also figuring out a way to pay my tuition for the next two semesters. I also had two 8-hours clinical days a week, which took a major toll on my physical and mental health. Some of the clinical sites were about 45 minutes drive and so I would have to wake up as early as 5 a.m. I was barely getting 4 hours of sleep each night because of the number of assignments and exams that were due each week.
I wouldn’t have been able to come this far if it weren’t for a great group of friends and family of course! I kept telling myself that it will get easier once I graduate because when you work, you don’t have to come back home and worry about any teaching plan or care plan. The 12-hour shifts may be exhausting but you’re not going to have the fear of failing a class and then getting dismissed from the program.
Our passing grade is 75% and anything below 75% is a fail which does not make things any easier. Some exams have been harder than others. But I am glad I made it through the semester. I really did not think I would last. My anxiety has been through the roof but I learned to take it one day at a time and as long as I was passing all my classes, it was going to be okay.
So whoever is reading this and is struggling through school, just remember to give it your best and take one step at a time. Don’t overwhelm yourself and don’t give up because five years down the road you don’t want to look back and regret your decision.